RIP Satoshi Kon

There are some elements that often appear in the movies and almost never fail to make me cry.

One of them is a message (letter, hidden gifts, photos) from a dead person, and the other is unconditional love of a parent for their children, which is often hidden because of their bad relationship. Yeah, they are often pretty cheesy but i might be an easy person to cry of those things.

Satoshi Kon has passed away yesterday, and honestly I just barely knew him of Millennium Actress and Paprika and didn't realize that he's such a popular director, especially outside Japan.

Anyhow, his last message as a farewall blog post (mirror) is a really personal message and has both of those "elements" to bring tears to me, and although it's painful to read, it is really really touching.

The first half of his post has been translated but yet the best part has not been, as of this writing. It's when he finally decided to meet their parents before dying, and on the next day they flew out of Sapporo, north of Japan to his home in Tokyo:

寝たきりとなった私を一目見るなり母が言った言葉が忘れられない。
「ごめんねぇ！丈夫に産んでやれなくて！」
何も言えなかった。

I will never forget what my mother told me right after she saw me, who's now unable to get out of the bed.

"I'm sorry! For not bringing you into this world with a stronger body!"

I was speechless.

OMG. This literally made me cry aloud.

May he rest in peace - and I'm looking forward to his next and final work The Dreaming Machine.

UPDATE: now the full post is translated.